Thursday, September 4, 2014

I Don't Need to Know What's Next, You'll be With me Every Step

This song

is perfect for what I'm feeling today

for what I'm facing right now

Dear God,

Ten years ago I walked out of my classroom and closed the door. Scott and I had a plan that it would be for one whole school year. But you found a way to turn one whole school year at home into ten. You found a way for me to be home raising my daughters until my youngest was in second grade. You've been with me every step, and I have walked in your path. Your plan for my life is perfect. And even though my heart wants to scream, "nooooo... I want to just stay home longer. Another baby. Or gosh can't I just go and do my babies over again?" You've told me it's time. And with trembling hands and a nervous heart today I'll open the door to a sweet little elementary school again. And I pray that that teacher from all those years ago is still in there, somewhere. But this time a lot wiser from being a mom. Thank you for finding me a 'baby' teaching job with Wednesdays off and only two and a half hours on the other days. Baby steps back into the classroom. I don't want to go. A toddler on my hip is what I feel 'good at' right now. Raffi and dancing in the kitchen. Sticky hands and baking. Thank you for reminding me that I am still that but that somehow and for some reason it's time to share that with other children. I pray that you would help me to grow and to learn and to remember that deep down there is a teacher and that above all every moment of my life you were there. I really don't need to know what's next. You'll be with me every step.

when I look back at every season

I can find there's ten thousand reasons

to trust that you can work all things for good

Every moment of my life,

God, you never left my side

every valley, every storm

you were there, you were there

I don't need to know what's next

you'll be with me every step

Through it all, through it all I can see

You carry me

Every moment of my life you were there, you were there. I don't need to know what's next. You'll be with me every step.

This is teaching  


  1. Hi Tara! My name is Heather and I was hoping you could answer my quick question I have about your blog! If you could email me at Lifesabanquet1(at)gmail(dot)com I would greatly appreciate it :-)

  2. My sweet, sweet friend...
    I cannot wait to hear more about this.
    In the meantime, I am with you as you begin this new adventure. : )

  3. I completely understand....this is where I was last year and this year I am blessed to be back at home. I wish you all the best and feel free to vent to me anytime. You are an amazing mom, I know you can do this. Thinking of you...big hugs! Keep us posted.

    Have a great week!!!



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